I realised that anger is just transient. You can be fuming mad at the moment, and at the next you find yourself eeriely calm. For that instant you feel so much like an overloaded dam with overflowing anger and hatred, and a little while later you feel that all that feelings have floated away like dandelion seeds with the wind.
Is that what you always feel? Or is it just a myself issue? Do people have emotional roller coaster rides just like me? Just… anyone?
Yesterday I was very angry with someone. I’ve got that really big urge to lash out at him, saying that his presence is not appreciated when I’m around. I don’t need you, and I feel more than just repulsive just a mere sight of you.
I rung up mom, and she talked me out of the lousy mood. I reckon she’s one of the few moms around who really listens to her children’s ramblings. I mean, who would want to spend a few minutes listening to a fuming adolescent who is obviously speaking things that are incoherent and completely incomprehensible?
Mom made me realise that as long as you let things go, they’ll just disappear. So does anger. For that very moment you feel like picking up a metal baseball bad and club his freaking head in, but for the next you feel that all that tantrum is just not worth it.
Thanks mom, I feeling way better. And as for that person, I shall not do anything but just let things take it’s own course. Whether is it going to change for the better or for the worse, it’s the last thing in my mind.
I getting outta here.
always look on the bright side of your life… :) dont be mad, be cool..
chet, say people, very clever ah yanni… :P
I think it’s normal to have roller-coaster-emotion. I can safely say that you quite normal because you feel the anger. Don’t keep it to yourself and at least you have your mom to share with you.
The next time you have, maybe you can just go around and snap picture of the nature.. and have a good sleep.
Then you should be fine..
We’re so lucky to have great mums like them.
Over the years I’m still trying not to let my frustration out to my innocent mum but she’s the only person who won’t judge me and listens to every single word. Plus the boyfriend too.
yanni: Thanks for your advice! I realise keeping your anger under control is very important, because it is simple not fair to let others bear your wrath when they didn’t provoke you.
hp84: Thanks for telling me that I’m not the only one experiencing this, but I think for a guy to have such a feeling it’s quite unusual! Thanks for your advice! Ah wells photography and listening to music helps me to lift my mood.
Nonnie: Yea, I’m glad that my mom is being so understanding and caring. She doesn’t make any assumptions – she just try to make me understand the situation and see things in a different way. And yea Bobby is a great listener too! Feel blessed that you have him! Hold on to him tight and don’t let him run away – these guys are so hard to come by these days!